Erg! | ugetthejist's Blog

I need accountability so I figure if I write this for someone to read then I have to get it done.

Tomorrow I MUST go to the city county building to finish filing paper work.  I also MUST get the no contact order filed!  I hate the stalking. I also MUST get to Cummins to get a copy of my medical records before my doctor appointment.   So someone ask me what I got done?  PLEASE????

The rest of this may only make sense to me. 

I'm sure after I see my doc tomorrow that I'll be told to stop talking or associating w/ M_.  This is killing me.  So much so that I don't want to go.  I have to go though.  I don't know how to handle this.  I wish he would talk.  Then maybe at least I'd know what was up and could convince the doc I'm doing what's right.  Instead it's really to a point where I feel it's obvious he only using me to get me 'out of his system'.  Besides all I do is get nervous. . .    I won't be that person that begs for answers or  'chases' after someone.  I figure if he wanted to he'd say something.  Therefore the silence gives me my answer. 

He does do things for me, and it's great!  But some people are jist that way?  M_ has always been the helper type.

*Jenni*