????? | ugetthejist's Blog

I don't know how much longer I can do this.  Your happiness means more to me than most anything.  I know what I did many years ago was awful.  I can understand why you would not trust me.  But to continue things as they are is no ok?!?!  Hopefully we soon will have a resolution.  If not I don't know what to do except disappear?  Please tell me.

I want so much to be part of each other lives.  I'm not really angry, but certainly nervous and scared.  I do know if things continue as they are I will get angry.  And I believe you would too.  It simply isn't who we are. 

I don't want to be out of each others lives again.  I also refuse to be that sappy kind of girl though too.  Hopefully I'll hear from you soon.  Before I give up?