I Hate Him!!! | ugetthejist's Blog

I never knew hate like this actually existed.  I use the word hate lightly.  I hate green beans.  I hate that person who cut me off while driving. 

I've been very angry w/ people who have done some awful things and thought of it as hate.  This tho, this is hate.

I hate the way he tried to control my life.  I especially hate the way he did control my life.  I hate the way he played mind games with my girls.  The way he degraded them like they were nothing.  All in an effort to make his point and 'teach' us something. 

I hate the way he still tries to bait me and get me to respond.  I hate him for coming to my job and yelling and cussing at me.  I hate how he does nothing physically threatening for me to take any action against.  I simply hate him! 

I don't want to feel this way.  I don't like feeling all the negativity.  I need to let go but then he is always still there.  Maybe this year he won't be at that school w/ his daughter.  Maybe she is going somewhere else.  I want to move away so he doesn't know where I am.  So he has no way to contact me.  But that simply isn't a realistic option for me. 

So simply put I need to work through this hatred.  I don't want to feel that way for anyone.